I’m sitting here thinking. Probably not a great idea but it’s happening. I find myself searching in my life for the worst times and trying to analyze the way I handled them to see if my current emotional state is outside my norm. Through this wondering I’ve also pondered how many times people feel like they’re drowning simply because they are busy being a life raft for other people. I’m wondering how many times someone has been depressed and struggling but never reached out for help because they thought they needed to be strong for others. I would imagine the answer is many times.
Suicide is an incidence that gets everyone thinking. Reevaluating their own lives and relationships. Each person who has ended their own life has had their own reasons, reasons we will never truly know. I just wonder how many times the reason has been they were strong for others for too long and when it came time for someone to hold them up no one was there. People think because you come off as strong that you don’t have moments of weakness. You don’t feel strong emotions, you don’t need anyone but that isn’t the case. The people who feel the most alone don’t reach out because they feel like they are a burden. They don’t reach out because they don’t think anyone can help them; they think people are too busy in their own lives. I tell you these things because I feel like it is so important for people to make themselves a priority. Just take a moment to take a self inventory and make sure you aren’t drowning trying to save everyone else. They tell you on an airplane to put on your own oxygen mask before helping anyone else with theirs and although it may seem cold, that should be the way your life is. You can’t help anyone until you help yourself. You can’t keep sacrificing your own happiness, your own sanity for the sake of others. Let them save themselves. Put your mask on first. Reach out if you need help. You aren’t alone and you don’t have to do this alone. Everyone is going through their own shit so if you’re waiting for things to slow down, they never will. But the good thing about everyone going through their own shit is there is plenty of people who can truly empathize with you and relate. Find those people. Love with all you are, but make sure you love yourself first.
That’s it for today ❤️