Dysfunctional Society

There are many issues with our society as a whole. There are certain key characteristics I am going to go through and describe and tell you how to deal with these people, or how your behavior affects others if you are one of the described people. The first set I am going to describe is toxic people. Later on, I am going to describe some anxiety/mental health behaviors most people don’t recognize. My biggest goal from this post is to help people recognize what is “their problem” and what is “not their problem” in a relationship. By nature, people try to take on other peoples issues for themselves, and then feel bitter for being “put” in that position when in all reality, they put themselves there.

I want people to understand about energies and how they can affect you. Positivity is contagious, but so is negativity. A great saying is “misery loves company” and that is a real life problem. Most people don’t like to admit when they are wrong, and most people would rather take on negativity, rather than admit that they are allowing someone else to control their energy. I say this because toxic people are a huge cause of being stuck in a pattern of negative energy. We need to be able to recognize them, and hold ourselves accountable for protecting ourselves from their bad energy.

The Arrogant

The first type of toxic person I would like to discuss is the “The Arrogant.” This type of toxic personality is also considered narcissistic, and carries a lot of the other traits of toxic people. Arrogant people live in a lala land that revolves around them. Most don’t recognize this type unless you know them personally. They seem very nice on the outside, until you cross them. This type only likes it their way. Anyone who challenges them could possibly jeopardize their fantasy land, so they are then the focus of the arrogants’ rage. When you are on the bad side, these types tend to criticize and belittle you and make you look like the bad guy. In their minds, these types cannot accept any chance of being wrong. Most of the time these types are compensating so that people won’t see some kind of deficiency they have recognized within themselves. They know that they don’t have genuine friendships, and compensate by having many acquaintances.
Personal Example: I have a family member who has a skilled labor job. This person is getting up there in age and won’t be able to do this job for very much longer. This person doesn’t have a high school diploma and has no other real skills, so I have suggested they get their G.E.D. in order to help them find a job when they need a new one. This person refuses to take the class because they are afraid they will fail, but instead of saying that, they outwardly speak about how they don’t need a G.E.D. and how the skills they have will be fine and it is someone else’s responsibility to take care of the bills since this person has been doing it for so long. This is arrogance. The inability to recognize they may need help, or accept the possibility of failure paired with the passing of the blame onto someone else so they don’t have to be responsible for the fallout are classic traits.
How to deal with them: The best way to deal with an arrogant person is to be compassionate. Generally, they have issues they are trying to conceal with smugness and they can’t emotionally handle any kind of criticism. So don’t point out insecurities. Recognize that their behavior reflects only on them and you have no control over their actions, only on how you react to them. If they are belittling you, make sure you address them calmly, and most importantly privately. This type does not like being called out and will be harsh and unresponsive in a social setting.

“The Victim”

This is one of the most draining personality types. These people are the ones who seem to always have a rain cloud hanging over their heads. Bad things are always happening to them. This type is also generally what society refers to as a “one-upper” because if anyone is sick or hurt, they have to be more sick or more hurt. These people are generally self harming to get to that worse state, and will go to very extreme lengths to make themselves seem victimized. There are varying degrees of this type. Some are constantly victimized by others. These people tend to be able to turn any type of argument or disagreement around on the other person, and like to retell the story in a way that makes them seem like they were attacked. If you are on the receiving end of this behavior, you can be sure they will tell everyone you know their version of what happened to try to pad their story. Most of the time this behavior is just a need for attention and sympathy. They need people to feel sorry for them because most of the time outside of the times they are hurt, no one wants to interact with them.
Personal experience: I know a lot of different people with varying degrees of this trait. One specific instance is a person I know who thinks the world is out to get them. They are always talking about how their life is awful and they don’t ever recognize the good things in their life because they are too busy finding blame for the bad ones. Every little thing that happens is just part of a larger scheme to ruin their life. Everything bad that happens is a catastrophe and blame can always be found in someone else. This person never takes responsibility for their own part in their story and considers themselves a victim of circumstance, and has an excuse for their behavior.
How to deal with them: The only way to deal with these people is to limit, if not completely remove your exposure. When you disconnect, expect them to make it seem like you are being mean to them or saying other things to make it seem like you are the bad guy. Remember that anyone who truly knows you will recognize this as what it is, and the ones who believe this person will most likely always support them. A lot of times people end up in a cycle of giving these people anything they want so it isn’t turned around on them, which is why I said this was one of the most draining personalities. It is a tough place to get out of, and for the most part, these people have no desire to change their behavior. The main thing you can do is remember who you are and that others opinions are just that—not yours and don’t belong on you.

“The Gossipers”

These people make sure to have their ear everywhere. They have many people they call friends for the sake of being involved in every single thing going on around them. They try to make themselves seem exciting by telling stories about others as if they were there. Most of these people are completely phony and compensate by lying and spreading info about others to take attention away from themselves. These people are generally aware that they are toxic, but don’t want others to recognize it. If it comes back on them, they will backtrack, lie, tell something about someone else meant to distract, and anything else in their power to not be found out. These people tend to make their relationships with people seem more than they are, for example saying they are good friends with someone they barely know to make themselves look more credible.
Personal Experience: Someone I know likes to lie on social media because most of the friends this person has either don’t know them very well, or believe their lies. I know for a fact how this person is so I will respond to posts that aren’t true and question them. They will immediately delete anything that could potentially prove them a liar. In the same breath this person will tell people we are good friends, and also tell others how I am a terrible person.
How to deal with them: Don’t divulge any information you don’t want spread. Never tell them anything going on in your life that involves anyone else, because they will spread it in a way that makes it seem like you were the one gossiping. Don’t tell them secrets. If they aren’t someone you’re obligated to be around, avoid them. Cut them out of your life, because they don’t have your best interest at heart and will only try to stir up trouble for you and the people you care about.

Negative Traits that could be caused by anxiety or depression

I don’t think people often try to explore the motives of others. I think when we have a bad experience our first thought is to cut that person out, as they are clearly a bad person. That isn’t always the case. I know for myself, I have issues with controlling things. This can make me irritable, anxious, and impatient. My need for controlling things is caused by my anxiety reminding me of when I have lost control before, and what happens if it is lost again. A lot of people probably think I am a helicopter parent because of the way I hover over my children. If they would look a little deeper, they would realize the way I work and the reason I react the way I do. Some other traits that can be caused by anxiety and depression include:

  • Over analyzing
  • Trouble sleeping
  • Being sensitive and easily drained
  • Empathy
  • Being introverted
  • Fidgeting, and being impatient
  • Negativity
  • Bouts of rage
  • Low self esteem
  • Over confidence

If you are empathetic you have to be cautious as to who you spend your time with. If not you can easily become an emotional dumping ground. I personally have a few people in my life who like to dump and run as I call it. These people will call me to dump their emotional problems on me, but immediately have to get off the phone when it’s time for me to reciprocate. These aren’t the type of people you want in your life.

I have a lot of friends who will take others emotional baggage as their own and then start to crumble under the weight. I find myself saying a lot that its a “them” problem, not a “you” problem to try and help them get the load off that they aren’t required to carry. Yes, it does make you a good friend to listen to someone when they aren’t okay, but you also have to be able to know that you are not there to fix things for them and therefor, it isn’t your responsibility to shoulder the weight. Boundaries are an important part of life that help the empaths and overly sensitive people navigate the separation between their thoughts and feelings, and someone else’s. You have to be able to separate and also know when you need to break and recharge. ‘You don’t have to set yourself  on fire to help keep others warm,’ is a quote that fits perfectly. Only you know your tolerance and what you can withstand before it starts zapping your energy. Remember that it is okay to tell someone you need some alone time. You have to be your own advocate. You do not have to apologize for the way you feel, but you also can’t control the way people react to you. Your only loyalty lies within yourself, and making sure you aren’t on fire.


That’s all for now!



The silence is loud

It hurts my ears

I tell myself this

To justify the tears

Denial, depression

Well, I’ve got it all

Quietly, silently

Slowly I fall

Disbelief in my mind

Numbing in my heart

A deep, dark, black hole

Slowly tearing me apart

The winds whip around me

I try to hold on

To experience the loss

To believe that you’re gone

To feel all the feelings

But none of the pain

To grieve and get through it

While still staying sane

On the outside I’m steady

As strong as a rock

On the inside I’m numb

On my heart is a lock

I have so many feelings

Too many to sort out

I miss you, I hate you

Is this what life’s about?

I catch myself off guard

At night, all alone

The pain sneaks up on me

Reminds me what is known

Its right in my face,

I can see it but can’t touch

I’m scared it will burn me

It will all be too much

I hope that you’re happy

Wherever you went

Trying to hold myself together

Remember the time we spent

Your memories are all we have

We will keep them, hold them tight

I just wish that I could speak with you

Moving on doesn’t seem right

I know that moving forward

Is the only way to go

I hope that I can feel you here

Whenever I feel low

For now, I’ll take it day by day

Second by second if I may

I love you and I miss you bro

If only heaven wasn’t so far away ❤️


Today is hard. I don’t know why but today has just been hard. I just keep trying to wrap my head around the fact that I will never get to see my brother again. My brother, who I shared 25 years and endless memories with, is gone. I don’t really wonder why anymore, I’m sure he had his reasons, now I just wish it wasn’t true. I wish this whole thing was just a nightmare and I could wake up and talk to my brother again. I know that isn’t going to happen. 25 years old. I find myself wondering what his life would’ve been like ten years from now. Would he have had children? Would he have an awesome job and a house? Would he have moved closer? Would we have been closer? I just miss him like crazy and I wish there would be some sign that he’s ok and he made it somewhere on the other side or wherever he was meant to go. Some sign that says ok he’s no longer in pain. Maybe one day. His birthday is next month. He wouldve been 26. Still so young. Only thing I can do is keep moving forward and keep his memory alive, but also move on with my life. Time has kind of stood still lately in my mind. The days have just kind of blended together like a glob so I hope that doesn’t stay. I hope I don’t feel this way forever. I hope one day soon I can look back and have wonderful memories and be at peace with his loss. Until then though I just have to keep holding on, taking things moment by moment, and doing only what I can and nothing more. Not expecting things out of myself, just getting done what I can and not punishing myself for not doing more. ❤️


What an odd word for this situation. I don’t accept my brother’s decision to kill himself. But what I can accept is that he made that decision and there isn’t anything I can do to change it. Mental illness is invisible. So when someone is suffering with it sometimes you never even know. So although they’ve been sick for a long time and trying to fight it, when they lose the battle it leaves us with a lot of questions. It’s hard to accept when you can’t physically see it. My mom says that sometimes it doesn’t take a culmination of dark moments but just one at the wrong time and that is true. I think more often than not, all it takes is that one second. That one bad thought. No outside force can control it. No one will ever understand why someone would do this because we can’t read minds and even if we could, everyone experiences things differently. I know asking why and trying to figure it out seems like the logical thing to do. Trying to make sense of nonsense won’t help you move on. Accepting someone was sick and they aren’t anymore is the only way to find peace. I use an app that had me write a letter to him and then write a letter from him. It helped me. Trying to put myself in his shoes instead of wondering why made a huge difference. Trying to understand he had a sick mind and he had an alcohol problem instead of trying to figure out who did what and who could have done what differently is important. Blame has no place here. You can’t move on if your holding on to negative feelings like blame and guilt. And I know that’s easier said than done but it’s something we have to try. Everyone is dealing with a loss. Your questions aren’t more important than someone else’s feelings. I’m going to try my hardest to put the questions behind me and decide what I can do with my future to make a difference. ❤️


I’m sitting here thinking. Probably not a great idea but it’s happening. I find myself searching in my life for the worst times and trying to analyze the way I handled them to see if my current emotional state is outside my norm. Through this wondering I’ve also pondered how many times people feel like they’re drowning simply because they are busy being a life raft for other people. I’m wondering how many times someone has been depressed and struggling but never reached out for help because they thought they needed to be strong for others. I would imagine the answer is many times.

Suicide is an incidence that gets everyone thinking. Reevaluating their own lives and relationships. Each person who has ended their own life has had their own reasons, reasons we will never truly know. I just wonder how many times the reason has been they were strong for others for too long and when it came time for someone to hold them up no one was there. People think because you come off as strong that you don’t have moments of weakness. You don’t feel strong emotions, you don’t need anyone but that isn’t the case. The people who feel the most alone don’t reach out because they feel like they are a burden. They don’t reach out because they don’t think anyone can help them; they think people are too busy in their own lives. I tell you these things because I feel like it is so important for people to make themselves a priority. Just take a moment to take a self inventory and make sure you aren’t drowning trying to save everyone else. They tell you on an airplane to put on your own oxygen mask before helping anyone else with theirs and although it may seem cold, that should be the way your life is. You can’t help anyone until you help yourself. You can’t keep sacrificing your own happiness, your own sanity for the sake of others. Let them save themselves. Put your mask on first. Reach out if you need help. You aren’t alone and you don’t have to do this alone. Everyone is going through their own shit so if you’re waiting for things to slow down, they never will. But the good thing about everyone going through their own shit is there is plenty of people who can truly empathize with you and relate. Find those people. Love with all you are, but make sure you love yourself first.

That’s it for today ❤️

RIP FC2 Kier

Yesterday was the funeral for my 25 year old brother Kendall. As much reality as there has been and finality with the funeral, I find myself still trying to figure out if I’m in denial or if I’m dealing with things exceptionally well. I can’t let myself just break down. I don’t know why but I can’t risk the vulnerability. I remember the last few months having my mom call me and tell me he wasn’t ok. Telling me he wanted to die and I kept telling her there’s no way. There’s no way he could do that. I even had myself convinced. Although suicide and mental illness has plagued my family for generations, my brother was always so rational. Always thought it was stupid to go out that way. Yet here we are mourning the loss and feeling the pain of his choices.

I know my brother was in a dark place for a long time. And he thought getting help would make him appear weak, or he would lose the navy job he so loved. Some people want to blame his marital issues and I’m sure my sister in law feels guilty but I know that suicide isn’t only just a selfish act. It’s also a choice you make in an irrational state of mind. Everyone has their own personal hell and what’s a breeze to one can be hell to another so there will never be a way to know what exactly was in his head that night. The should haves and could haves and what ifs are a waste of energy. What’s done is done. We can’t change it. The only thing we can do at this point is to break the cycle. End the stigma on mental illness. Spread the word that it’s okay to not be okay so more people reach out instead of feeling like there’s no other way. I would like to somehow be able to get help for military people because they have such hard jobs. Long times away from family and friends and having to see and do things that most of us can’t even imagine. These people who are fighting for our freedoms against our enemies should not be having to battle inside their own heads for fear of being ostracized. These people should be a main priority in this country. And I don’t just mean military, I mean all of the men and women who’s job it is to protect and serve. These people should be our first priority and we should thank them by making sure they know it is okay to get help. It is okay not to be okay.

My brother came home from deployment on a Friday. While he was out he had already told us of his plans to end his life and we had reached out to the navy to try and get him help. I’m not exactly sure what he told them but nothing was done. He was angry that my mother had told of his plans and was concerned about being in trouble with the navy. I don’t know if he had PTSD or bipolar disorder but what I do know is he should not have been afraid to ask for help. To tell them he wasn’t able to deal. He told my mom, ‘now I’ll have to do it.’ When he did finally come home he started drinking the first night. He told his friends he was “unplugging” for the weekend to work things out with his wife. The second night he sent my parents (although we didn’t know at the time) his final goodbyes. The third night he was gone. I never thought it would be him. I look back now and see all of the signs and signals that should’ve thrown up red flags but I realize that once he made the decision anything we would have done would’ve just prolonged the inevitable. I don’t place blame anywhere, I know that he made his own choices and most of them were made by a sick mind.

I’m still sorting through my thoughts and trying to figure out a way to accept what has happened and what this means for me. I love my sister in law and I hope that she is able to find solace in some of this and be able to move on with her life without this dark cloud moving over her too. When this happened I sort of shut my friends and family out for fear of spreading this misery any further. Maybe one day I’ll open up. I just feel like my brother hurt enough people and I don’t feel like anyone else should have to hurt for this. Maybe that’s the anger.

One thing I know for sure is I’m going to try my hardest to make sure my kids know their options. I’m not going to be snowed into the thought that maybe they will never experience depression, but instead plan for them to know its ok to get help and there is help out there.

That’s all I have for now. When I get things together a little more I’ll come back. Until then, please spread the word that it’s okay to not be okay and help is all around us.


Tantrums & Meltdowns, Oh my!

So tantrums have been an issue for every parent at one point in time. I mean, we call them “terrible two’s” for a reason, right? Everyone has some tricks up their sleeves with their own children, but what do you do when that doesn’t work? Children also have different versions of tantrums, so how do you tell what to do about yours? What is the difference between a tantrum and a meltdown?

First, let me explain the difference between a tantrum and a meltdown. Generally, in a tantrum, a child still has some control over their actions and emotions. In a meltdown, they are so distraught they have to wear themselves out to calm down. Either way, they are struggling with emotions and are unable to effectively communicate or regulate. This is where we come in. Teaching our children how to communicate their feelings in a safe, healthy way will not only make our relationships with our children better but will also make it much easier to understand them.

The first thing you can do is observe when your child has a tantrum and see what triggered it. Was it not getting their way over a toy? Or not winning a game? There are so many things in a child’s world that they can’t understand the reasoning for, such as you didn’t let them stay up and play video games, or go to school without eating breakfast. It could be the smallest thing. But the important part is to understand what the triggers are and what is the emotion they are trying to express? For example, my son gets upset when he can’t get a game to load on his tablet. In this instance I know he is angry it isn’t working. He also will cry when he doesn’t get called on in class. In this instance I know he feels ignored. Learning what the triggers are and what emotions they are trying to communicate will help you with the next step.

Don’t get frustrated if there are many things that trigger a tantrum with your child. Break it down a little more. Are all of the triggers caused by anger? Maybe he/she has trouble controlling his anger. Maybe he/she has trouble with feeling left out. Maybe your child just has issues with any negative emotion. This happens more in younger children who don’t have the words to express how they feel. In younger children, you start by teaching them to say, “I’m mad” or “I’m sad.” In older children who know the words you have to help them understand how to deal with those emotions in a safe and healthy way.

Staying calm should be your first reaction. I know this is hard when you’re in the middle of a place where yelling and screaming isn’t ideal but it’s a must. Second thing you should do is give them time to sort it out. Don’t avoid the triggers. That will only teach them that they need to avoid their feelings. Instead give them tools to use to help them understand how they feel. Breakdown their triggers into small parts and start slow. If they have tantrums when it’s time to take away games, give them plenty of warning (10 minutes left, 5 minutes left) and make sure at first they are playing a game that they don’t mind stopping. Continue to do this until you can take it without a tantrum. Consistency is key.

Self regulation is important as well. When they have a tantrum make sure to have them either talk or write down what went wrong, why it happened, and how they can do better the next time they are in that situation. Kids are more rational than you think, and problem solving can be a great tool. Make sure you don’t hover and you let them figure it out. Make sure they know that if they need help, you are there but you believe in them being able to figure it out without your help. And when they do make strides reward them, praise them! You definitely want them to know that you are so proud of them!

Tantrums and Meltdowns are a normal part of development. And they are a huge chance for you to minimize emotional issues later on in development and help your relationship with your child. Is there anything you do that works to curb tantrums in your home?

Why I don’t limit screen time 

*Disclaimer: Everyone has an opinion about parenting. The truth is, what works for one kid doesn’t work for another so you should always go with your instincts and do what you feel is right–no matter who disagrees. Also, even though you don’t agree with someone else’s parenting you should keep your mouth closed, and just focus on what works for you. Every parent is doing the best that they can, the way they know how. Making people feel like they aren’t doing things right because they aren’t doing them your way is not only mean but nosy. In other words, mind your own business. *
So, everyone talks about “only give your child 1 hour of screen time” and I’m just going to flat out say that does not happen in my house. I have never set limits on my children’s screen time, other than at meals and bedtime. If they would like to spend the entire day watching tv and using their tablets, so be it. 

My oldest has ADHD and the tablet not only helps him focus but also teaches him things in a way he can relate to. (Which is extremely difficult) Does this mean he spends all day, every day on his tablet? No. By not placing a time limit on how much he gets a day he has been able to self regulate. He will play for a while, then he will set it down and play legos or draw. He likes to play with his friends, and enjoys spending time with his family. He is extremely smart, and also extremely socially aware. So, has letting him choose how he spends his free time affected him negatively in any way? No, it hasn’t. He sometimes plays on the tablet all day, and sometimes not at all. But either way, it’s his free time to spend how he chooses and I think so far he is making some great ones. 

We are in a day and age where everything is done with a computer of some sort. (Phone, tablet, laptop, computer, etc) When I was younger that wasn’t the case so I went with the times and did other things kids my age did. I learned how to use the technology I was given, and over the years it has advanced significantly. I have kept up and I know how the world works. You can’t let your children play outside alone anymore like you could when I was younger. Not only do you have to worry about someone taking them, now you have to worry about another parent who doesn’t feel like you are doing your job correctly calling child services on you. 

Everywhere you go you are constantly being judged by people who think they have it all figured out. If your child throws a fit in a store you’re worried because people are staring at you and making comments about not being able to control your children. I have news for you, kids throw fits! It’s their way to let out their emotions. As long as they aren’t hurting themselves or anyone else, why does it matter? Smaller children aren’t able to express themselves in their emotions so yelling and being angry is how they express it! If you are constantly telling them to shh and to act right because of other people you are telling them that their emotions are supposed to be suppressed to make everyone else feel better. Obviously it’s embarrassing if your child is screaming in public, but I just let them scream it out and then we go on about our day. Another thing I personally get judged for is my children having their tablets, sitting in the cart playing on them. This is the way my kids sit still. And when my kids sit still, not only am I able to remember what I came for but the entire trip is just smoother as a whole. So, that’s what works for me. If your child is able to stand by you in a store with no issues, that doesn’t make you a better parent than me or your children more well behaved, just means we are different. There is nothing wrong with either. 

I wish people were able to just do what’s best for their kids without judging other people’s methods, but I know that isn’t going to happen. But for the record, we do what we feel is best without the judgement and opinions of others. We’re all struggling to figure this whole parenting thing out and each child is different, and has a different set of strengths and weaknesses. We should be helping each other by experience, not throwing each other under the bus. My kids are happy, well adjusted monsters who sometimes throw fits, and play on their tablets and I’m perfectly ok with that. 

Unapologetically YOU

Hey guys! I know I have been gone a while, but I felt like I needed to get some things out and where would I find a better place than here?

So, there is a whole lot of controversy going on in the world. Seems to me that as soon as something is widely publicized, everyone comes out with an opinion that they would defend to the death just for the sake of being right. I want you to ignore those people. Delete them from your social media, don’t take their calls and definitely don’t argue with them. You are wasting precious time and energy on someone who just wants to argue. You have much better things to do with your time!

Yes, I absolutely believe you should be able to have productive friendships with people who have different morals, and values but I also believe you shouldn’t have to be berated for feeling or thinking any certain way! There is a difference. I can tell you from personal experience that a friend will not attack the way you feel. A true friend is there to support you, and agree to disagree, not push their thoughts and feelings on you.

The ONLY way a person affects the way you feel is if you let them.  You can feel however you want and you do not have to apologize or defend your feelings! EVER!! So if you feel like someone is hurting your feelings, unintentionally or not, they are! If you feel like someone is constantly negative, they are! If you feel like someone is just giving off bad vibes and you don’t want to be around them, you don’t have to. And no one gets to tell you otherwise.

Here in lies my problem. You have to be very cautious who you share your heart with. There are snakes in the grass ladies and gents! These are the people who preach love and understanding and tag you in best friend things on facebook and then go behind your back and say bad things about you to someone else.

There are a few signs of these people that you can pick up on and protect yourself. The absolute number one sign of a snake in the grass is someone who will talk about a “friend” in a negative way to you. If that person is saying these bad things about someone who they refer to as a “friend”. then you need to be considering what information they are sharing about you behind your back. Another sign is someone who is constantly doing things to get attention, be it positive or negative. These people have narcissistic tendencies and generally will “care” about you until they find someone in the spotlight. One last sign is someone who calls you to talk, but as soon as they get the stuff they wanted to say, instantly get off the phone. This is called the dump and run. They dump off all the negativity in their life to feel better, but don’t return the favor for you.

Now I am not saying that someone who does any one of these things is a bad friend, just telling you to keep an eye (and ear) out and be a little cautious. You get to feel the way you want to feel, parent the way you want to parent, love the way you want to love, look the way you want to look, and anything else without having to fear being chastised by someone else. We are all so exceptionally unique and we shouldn’t be afraid to share those things with each other. You can always learn something from someone but obviously, the goal is to learn something positive.

How I wish it wasn’t so! I long for solidarity within the population, and for each person to consider how their actions will affect others when making decisions. I long for a group of people who I know I can trust, and who love me for who I am, with no judgment, just pure understanding. A group who I can learn life lessons from others, and share my own from experience to help someone else. A group where I can be myself, unapologetically, and you can be yourself too.

So,  I leave you today with a challenge. When you step into your day tomorrow I want you to stop, just for a moment and make a mental note to consider others when going about your day. If you have to wait in line for that coffee longer than usual, instead of going off, consider that the barista may be doing the best she can to hold herself together today and just needs a minute to get it together. At any point in your day with human interaction, lets give each other a break. To you, it may be nothing. But for someone else it could mean the world.<3


Much Love


5 Things To Know When You’re Having A Bad Day

Everyone has bad days. You fight with your significant other, your kid is a complete jerk all day, you forget to pay a bill, a friend hurts your feelings, your boss is an asshole, the list goes on and on. And sometimes everything feels like it’s just turning to shit all around you. And sometimes, it is. Don’t start that pity party just yet. I know how it feels to be at the end of your rope, ready to snap at any moment and to feel that feeling of impending doom. Like a cloud is just following you around ruining your freaking day. There’s danger around every turn, something else to set you off, and just when you feel like you’re finally going to have the nervous breakdown you rightfully deserve, I want you to remember these five things.

  1. First off, you are completely allowed to have a meltdown. As long as you pick yourself up off the floor afterward and don’t settle down and live there you can meltdown all you need. Get it out, think it out, cry it out, scream it out, whatever you have to do. Personally, I listen to Daniel Powder’s song “Bad Day” and cry as I listen when I need a small meltdown. Once you release all of that emotional negative energy you’re carrying you will feel better. Tired, but better.
  2. It is just a bad day, not a bad life. If you start thinking that every day is bad, you’re always going to be able to find something to justify it being a “bad day.” But if you recognize that the universe isn’t really out to get you and you have just had a few bad things happen to you, you will be better for it. Turning a few bad moments into something bigger than they are can cause the negativity to take over. Or cause depression to sink in. Neither is a good option. Find some happy music that makes you feel good and at the end of a really hard day get a pen and a piece of paper and write down five positive things that happened today. See how that makes you feel.
  3. Just remember that you’ve gotten through every single bad day so far in your life, so you can certainly get through this one. Don’t sweat the small stuff, and make sure to start your day off on the right foot with some positive thinking. It’s amazing how much you can impact your entire day with just starting out your day in a positive mood. Personally Ed Sheeran’s “Shape of You” is my go-to song for positivity, It always makes me want to dance.
  4. Remember that someone cares. There is someone who wants to hear from you, whether it’s good or bad. And if you call and talk their ear off for 3 hours about how terrible your day was or how everything is falling apart, don’t feel bad for that. You are not pushing off your bad day on them, friends are there to listen. And the only person who controls how they feel is them, so you can’t negatively affect them. Just make sure you allow your friend to communicate back their day and not just dumping and leaving. And if for some reason, you can’t find that person you can message me, and I will listen to you. I give great advice. 🙂
  5. Remember—AND THIS IS A BIG ONE not to take out your bad day on someone else. As I said earlier the only person who controls your feelings and reactions to something is you. And when we get irritable even if you don’t notice it we start to get paranoid. And when we start to get paranoid every little thing that goes wrong seems like an attack, something trying to push you closer to that ledge. Reign it in, partner. I know when you’re upset, rational thinking isn’t exactly at the forefront of your mind, but as your reading this I want you to put it there. And I want you to ask yourself, did he really spill that on purpose? Because you will find that if you ask yourself these questions nine times out of ten you will realize that you’re not thinking clearly and you can get yourself back on track.

Most important pieces of advice: A positive attitude will win out any bad day. Music can cure any ailment of the heart. The only person who can control how you react to any situation is you. The only person who controls your emotions is you. Someone can’t make you feel any certain way if you don’t let them. And also, as Dory says, “Just keep swimming.” It’ll all be okay. Maybe not today, but one day.